Year of the snake

It is indeed heartwarming to see families huddle together for CNY,it is the only time of the year when children,big or small fill their pockets with "ang pows" or red packets.Delicacies like "bak gua" or roasted pork are found in every homes that you visit.One of my favorite events of the Lunar new year would be the lion dance or what many would call it "Lang sai".It is believed that the clashing of gongs and the dance of the lion would chase away bad luck.I was told that ever since i was a kid,i would dash to the lion dance troupe just across my grandma's place just to hear them rehearse.And even up till now,i still drum my fingers on any surface whenever i hear the beating of the lion dance drum.


I finally visited my relatives during this CNY.I do have to admit,i was a bit adamant on visiting my relatives.I always feel intimidated whenever i visited them.All of my relatives are wealthy and enjoy social status in some way or another,and their fancy cars just makes me feel even worse being around them.I just feel out of place in these kind of gatherings.Firstly,the topics they talk about.Property,Politics,Business,All of them sound foreign to me and most of the time i just find myself nodding unknowingly to whatever they are saying.My heart always sink whenever they ask me what i am doing for a living.I can see it in their eyes that they are trying to accomadate me by looking interested in whatever i say i do.And i do appreciate the thought.Sadly,that does not make me feel any better.


But i am still thankful that i have magnanimous relatives like my 3rd uncle and my cousin.They did more for me and my brother than my father ever could.Being a compulsive gambler,my dad did not have time for me and my brother.Fortunately,my uncle and cousin filled up those gaps and gave us a memorable childhood.They brought us on overseas trips,oversee our homework,brought us to libraries,Have sunday meals,brought us to the movies and many many more.It is because of them that i felt i had a childhood,and i am so very thankful of that.I wish i could connect to them more but i do not know how to.I know that they have always felt sorry for us and i wish to tell them that do not have to as they done a lot for me and my brother even though we were not their kids.One of my greatest wish is to let them know how i feel,and i pray that i do not put it in a corny way,sometimes misinterpreted words do come out of my mouth and it is  always not what i wanted to say.Sometimes i think i cant express myself clearly and people always misunderstand me

Which reminds me,I apologize in advance if i ever gave you guys a "rude" impression.THAT is not my intent.You see,that is not my intention at all.I have to admit that sometimes i do get carried away with joking around and teasing and stuff like that,but that only shows that i am comfortable with you as a friend.And i mean no harm,i know it sounds kinda corny but it's the truth.It is just my way of connecting with people,and i will try to curb that habit.=P...Well,currently my eyes are feeling heavy,i gotta sleep now.Bye!