Let all the months and days come, they can't take nothing from me.. because they can't take nothing more.And so without much hope, All that I can do is to confront them without fear. The life that has crafted me through these years is still within my grasp. Whether have i subdued it or not,i seriously do not know. But so long as i know that it is there, it will seek its own way out, regardless and heedless of the will that is within me.Perhaps the most important thing we bring to another person is the silence in us, not that kind of silence that is filled with hidden criticism or withdrawal. It is the sort of silence that is a place where someone can seek refuge,rest,or just simply gain acceptance as someone whom they really are. We are all hungry for this silence. It is hard to find. In its presence we can remember something beyond the moment, a strength on which one can build a life. Silence is a place of great power and healing.Where one doesn't has the need to say a word,And all just simply falls into place.Ever since last year,I felt a taste of what Grief can give us.Pros and Cons.Well..I think i do not need to mention the Cons.But what grief can indirectly do for us is that it can give a wake up call to new values and new and deeper appreciations for things and people in our daily lives. Grief can cause us to again priortize things in our lives, to recognize what's really important and to put it first.Grief can heighten our gratitude as we cease taking the simple things that life bestows on us for granted.Although i have benefited from the teachings of the past,i still have not found my calling in life.No..i am not someone who needs to go to church(no offense)..as i seriously doubt that i can find anything there.. =) .I find that i am always misled by my emotions and let it sway,just to find that silence in someone..This seriously has to stop..I know that it can only bring me misfortune and nothing else..But i have to say despite these bold words,I miss u...and the way u were before
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Conflictcated..Always have Always will
Some people just really love to take a dig at me..And i do not really know why..I'm just so perplaxed here..Did i do anything to offend u?..Or did u just ASSUME something about me?..Sometimes i wonder does my actions always give people a negative feedback?..Screw all those sarcastic remarks and say it straight to my face..Yes..You got me so irritated..So tell me now..Are u happy now?
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Thursday, November 25, 2010
Hope
I hope Grandma gets well in a month's time..
I hope that the infection in her throat will get better with the doctor's medicine
And I hope that the Doctor bring good news on Jan 5..
Hope that history will not repeat itself again...
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Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Evolution
I remember...About a year ago,i was happily playing world of warcraft on my PC like nobody's buisness.Just fresh from ORD,i felt like i had all the time in the world.No worries,no troubles,no damn bills to pay.That..was one of my most carefree moments in my teenage years.Now that i am transcending into adulthood,I feel like i am dragging a massive iron chainball with me wherever i go.Weighed down by bills,my house,my future and the mistakes that i did when i lost total control of my feelings when i was down.Those mistakes costed me.It cost me alot.A fool i was.Yes,But an honest fool i am.Those mistakes made things complicated,Things as they were,will never be the same again.And it's so damn hurtful to know that My mistakes reflected on me as someone whom you should be terrified of.someone whom you should never get close with.These mistakes,I carry with much grief and regret.Though honest i was,But i should have known better that honesty is not always the best policy.Anyway i wish u luck in your new endeavour.
A year..and so much has changed,Honestly,I cower in fear at the thought of the impending year to come.I am seeing signs of history repeating itself again,Grandma is coughing non-stop,My aunt is taking her to see a doctor tomorrow.I hope that everything goes well.I need her,I cant afford another person to leave me again.i just can't.
I know i am not the person i used to be a year ago.Everyone around me knows it.I know everyone prefers the old me.Me too.I prefer my old self.And i know i can do it if i want to.But...it's just so hard to when i do not know what tomorrow brings for me,When...i feel subdued knowing that the mistakes that i did has changed everthing around me,It also changed people's impression on me.The past keeps haunting me,while my future is bleak.Sigh..I'm too lazy to write futher.
All i know is that
Change..it really is inevitable
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Sunday, October 17, 2010
Left Right Left
Reservist tomorrow..Haix..Sian..
Anyway can't believe i posted this song..
Dedicated to you..
Bye world =)
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Friday, October 15, 2010
Sawadikap!..Land of smiles
Bangkok...Truly its renowed for it's reputation as a city full of hustle and bustle.Not to mention the horrible traffick and the dusty streets.When i was in thailand i told myself that i would learn to apprciate the traffick in singapore more often.As someone who really hates waiting,Life would be much easier if i told myself this more often.As we were in the capital of thailand,I would say that shopping was on everyone's mind.Clearly as you can see this was the result of all the shopping i did in thailand."Shop till you drop" was on my mind on the entire 2nd day.I really needed some "emotheraphy".And shopping was really a salvation for me. =D
The trip started with everyone being tired and cranky,As we didn't sleep the entire day the day before our trip.Sore backs,necks and whatever have you were part and parcel of the trip.we did alot of walking.I would say we covered at least 15Km of walking throughout the whole trip.Fortunately,we had a very nice and cosy service apartment to retreat and recuperate every night.And i really loved our service apartment.Sorry didn't take any pictures of it.
Shopping was mostly what we did throughout the entire trip.I guess everyone just can't resist the cheap deals at Platinum mall.It's just so worthwhile to shop in thailand.All my berms and shirts didnt cost more than $15 a piece.It's a steal comparing the prices in singapore.
And i have to thank my dear friend Adah(birthday girl) for making this trip possible.You have no idea how much i needed a break from all the bullshit that's circling me.It's also another very unforgettable memory that i will carry with me to my grave. =).I hope you enjoyed the trip as much as i did.And that you had an unforgettable 27th birthday with everyone.I hope you enjoyed the lighter as well.Happy Birthday Adah!!
I wish that we could do this more often,Another land another story,that's what a holiday means to me.
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Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Down with the sickness

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FUCK ALL THIS BULL!!!!!!!!!!!!...
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